my song

this the song I'm currently fond of...

masked heart

I have watched My lovely samsoon years ago, but there's a quote there that never really got out of my mind. It goes like this, when we are sick we go to the doctor to be cured, but when our heart aches we self medicate we create ways to forget the pain, we drink ourselves to death, we curse, we do things that we don't normally do. But you know what's the worst self medication? Pretending you aren't hurt at all. I don't know the exact words but I think I have managed to get the gist of it. Loneliness is something that all of us feels at least once in a while. But some loneliness, is out of words. An indescribable pain. When you hurt a girl and she cries out loud, it means that she sheds out the pain and wants to let go. But when you hurt a girl and she never cries it means one thing you have carved a wound at her heart. A wound so deep that she doesn't even have any idea how to heal. This wound is like a hemorrhagic part of your body, it might result to ischemia. Psychological pain is self inflicted. My blog is going nowhere, I am not making much sense. Taba, You really know how to hurt someone.

living a life in the shadow

I've just received one of the most distressing news. A thing that hasn't even bagan is about to end. Why can't anyone keep fate from happening? This song is for taba. I hope you know how much I am in love with you. I try to keep life from happening but I can't do it alone.

Way Back Into Love - OST Music and Lyrics
I’ve been living with a shadow, over head
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud, above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside timeto clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make through without a way back into love
Oh-oh

I’ve been watchingbut the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searchingbut I just don’t see the signsI
know that it’s out there
there’s gotta be something for my soul somewhere
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the nightI
could use some directionand I’m open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping, you’ll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
and if you’ll help me to start again
you know that I’ll be there for you in the end

life as they make it

I am so tired. Dead tired. Why is my life such a big hassle? They say that we always have choiced, we can choose to sulk or te be happy. To hold on or let go. To love or to hate. I'm starting to think that whoever said that is a big hypocrite and never experienced the bitterest of life's flavor. I am sure all of us experienced a situation wherein we don't have a choice at all. A situation wherein whatever we choose the result would be the same, and that's you getting hurt. I'd be damned if I say I experienced everything life has to offer but my idea is that "life is not how we make it" There's more to life that ourselves, the people we love, who loved us, who hurt us, who helped us they are the one who makes our life. Emotions are not part of our heart it's in our brain, and just like the neural sensory archway. The other people are the stimulus, they are there to cause a reaction and brain stimulation. Others affect us big time. No one chooses to be hurt, to feel pain but we can't help feeling that way if our brain tells us that it feels numb due to the stimulant called betrayal. My life goes as how others around me make it. They can choose to please me, annoy me, love me, detest me. The only choice i have is if these things to them in return.