so tired

IF WE FALL IN LOVE
YENG CONSTANTINO & RJ JIMENEZ

There will be no ordinary days for you
When you have someone, who cares like I do
You have no reason to be sad anymore
I'm always ready with a smile,
With just one glimpse of you

You don't have to search no more
Cause I am someone who will love you for sure

So/Cause If we fall in love
Maybe will sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you would be a better place

You can watch that movie in a different light
Cos I'll be right there beside you
Hugging you oh so tight
Hands will never feel so cold and empty again
Cause I will keep on holding on
And never let go

It feels so good when you're around
One smile from you
Can make me feel so bright.

certified!

I have just finish watching devil beside you. It was aired 2 years ago in Taiwan but I only got the chance to watch it now. Thanks to youtube! It was a super romantic comedy. Since meteor garden I never too any liking for taiwanese drama anymore, but devil beside you is completely different it made me want to fall in love immidietly. This story proves that girls would often choose bad boys. I really like the character of Jiang Meng he is tough on the outside but completely different whenever he's with Qi Yue. There are a lot of romantic scenes there that would make any girl's heart melt he's lines as if he is a boy who is really sweet but is unaware of his sweetness. Mike give a whole lot meaning to the word kiss and he really is unbelievably hot!

my song

this the song I'm currently fond of...

masked heart

I have watched My lovely samsoon years ago, but there's a quote there that never really got out of my mind. It goes like this, when we are sick we go to the doctor to be cured, but when our heart aches we self medicate we create ways to forget the pain, we drink ourselves to death, we curse, we do things that we don't normally do. But you know what's the worst self medication? Pretending you aren't hurt at all. I don't know the exact words but I think I have managed to get the gist of it. Loneliness is something that all of us feels at least once in a while. But some loneliness, is out of words. An indescribable pain. When you hurt a girl and she cries out loud, it means that she sheds out the pain and wants to let go. But when you hurt a girl and she never cries it means one thing you have carved a wound at her heart. A wound so deep that she doesn't even have any idea how to heal. This wound is like a hemorrhagic part of your body, it might result to ischemia. Psychological pain is self inflicted. My blog is going nowhere, I am not making much sense. Taba, You really know how to hurt someone.

living a life in the shadow

I've just received one of the most distressing news. A thing that hasn't even bagan is about to end. Why can't anyone keep fate from happening? This song is for taba. I hope you know how much I am in love with you. I try to keep life from happening but I can't do it alone.

Way Back Into Love - OST Music and Lyrics
I’ve been living with a shadow, over head
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud, above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside timeto clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make through without a way back into love
Oh-oh

I’ve been watchingbut the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searchingbut I just don’t see the signsI
know that it’s out there
there’s gotta be something for my soul somewhere
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the nightI
could use some directionand I’m open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping, you’ll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
and if you’ll help me to start again
you know that I’ll be there for you in the end

life as they make it

I am so tired. Dead tired. Why is my life such a big hassle? They say that we always have choiced, we can choose to sulk or te be happy. To hold on or let go. To love or to hate. I'm starting to think that whoever said that is a big hypocrite and never experienced the bitterest of life's flavor. I am sure all of us experienced a situation wherein we don't have a choice at all. A situation wherein whatever we choose the result would be the same, and that's you getting hurt. I'd be damned if I say I experienced everything life has to offer but my idea is that "life is not how we make it" There's more to life that ourselves, the people we love, who loved us, who hurt us, who helped us they are the one who makes our life. Emotions are not part of our heart it's in our brain, and just like the neural sensory archway. The other people are the stimulus, they are there to cause a reaction and brain stimulation. Others affect us big time. No one chooses to be hurt, to feel pain but we can't help feeling that way if our brain tells us that it feels numb due to the stimulant called betrayal. My life goes as how others around me make it. They can choose to please me, annoy me, love me, detest me. The only choice i have is if these things to them in return.

embracing chaos

Another year has began. I've made a lot of new year's resolutions in the past but not even half of them were actually obeyed. Another year. Another year to embrace the havoc and chaos that life continously bring. Though it's hard and most of the time unfair. We have no choice but to eat what's on our plate. Though what was served make us barf or something, as if we have a choice.

How's it possible to feel this lousy towards the incoming year? Perhaps it's because it will be no different than the past years. Continous struggle. If I were to view life in a different angle I wish I could see it through tom sawyer's eyes. We only live once, I just wish I won't feel this lousy towards life after all I'm blessed to have reached this year.